What happens when you have great grief in your life is the arteries of that heart begins to spasms down just literally squeezes down like this because you're feeling the tension of your life and then the heart muscle itself will also begin - to get stressed out.
It's like once you've seen Tom Hanks win the Golden Globes the Oscars you've seen his wife what kind of car he drives when you watch his movies you can't fully get really lost in them.