I've always loved the old epics that tell a simple emotional story whether it's the tumultuous relationship between Rhett and Scarlett or Lawrence of Arabia's passion to get lost in a faraway place.

When I am dead I hope it may be said: His sins were scarlet but his books were read.

History could pass for a scarlet text its jot and title graven red in human blood.

You know the passage where Scarlett voices her happiness that her mother is dead so that she can't see what a bad girl Scarlett has become? Well that's me.

This is what I asked for and in this day and age that's what actually goes on. But what hurts me the most is that I work just as hard as any other actress around my age like Scarlett Johansson but I just don't get the opportunities that they get because people are so distracted by the mess that I created in my life.