I'd gone from being this art student messing about with music to this girl with a record deal magazine front covers and all this hype. In many ways it was everything I ever wanted but when it happened all I felt was total paralysing fear.
I've been an atheist since I was nine years old. And my mom is really religious so we have a strange relationship. But if my mother was right what would be the reason that the gods could let anything bad happen in the world?