Caught up in life you see it badly. You suffer from it or enjoy it too much. The artist in my opinion is a monstrosity something outside of nature.
Happiness is a monstrosity! Punished are those who seek it.
Professionalism is not sportsmanship. If you don't succeed you won't be in your profession for long. In our society it's not about good or bad. It's about who's on top.