I had this totally impossible dream of being an actress. Trust me just because I'm lucky enough to be doing this doesn't make any of this less of a pipe dream. And nothing gets my juices flowing like a really great performance. To see someone on stage I get really excited.
We may think there is willpower involved but more likely... change is due to want power. Wanting the new addiction more than the old one. Wanting the new me in preference to the person I am now.