I was talking to one of my aunties at Christmas and she said she didn't think it was ever in my nature to go against the grain that I was always a good boy. I think she was right - I did always want to be good.
When I go back to family reunions everybody goes 'Hey cousin! Hey Auntie!' And I'm like 'Okay I don't know you I have no idea who you are.' I am auntie and cousin for so many and even the ones in prison call me collect. And I'll be like 'Which of my family members are giving you this phone number?'
For me however that beloved glowing little word happiness has become associated with everything I have felt since childhood upon hearing the sound of the word itself.