I was a loner as a child and happiest at home launching toy rockets and aeroplanes. When I started causing trouble in my third year at grammar school Mum was really surprised. My parents sent me to a child psychologist who suggested I might have Asperger's syndrome.
Admiration of the proletariat like that of dams power stations and aeroplanes is part of the ideology of the machine age.
The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart the less capable you are of loving in the present.