To have some idea what it's like stand in the outside lane of a motorway get your mate to drive his car at you at 95 mph and wait until he's 12 yards away before you decide which way to jump.
I wanted to end my life so bad and was in my car ready to go down that ramp...
When I see these young girls who are dreaming the dream that I'm living it's very very exciting and it puts a big smile on my face.
