Shutting off the thought process is not rejuvenating the mind is like a car battery - it recharges by running.
There is not enough time to do all the nothing we want to do.
I wanted to end my life so bad and was in my car ready to go down that ramp...
Remember always give your best. Never get discouraged. Never be petty. Always remember others may hate you. But those who hate you don't win unless you hate them. And then you destroy yourself.