There are lots of things which I would love to tell him but in some way I also feel that I lost the person closest to me. And I got a second chance to live. So in a way I feel that I live for both of us... and I will do my best.
To have some idea what it's like stand in the outside lane of a motorway get your mate to drive his car at you at 95 mph and wait until he's 12 yards away before you decide which way to jump.
