I think it's sad to me that I had to make a decision to not play the game that I feel like I'm best at and that I love. But if it was just about the game itself I'd be there in a heartbeat. But that's not how the real world works.
I was making my living from a joke about my appearance that I didn't understand and in a way still don't because when I look in a mirror it doesn't seem funny to me.
