Dwight is a sad clown. You've seen those paintings of sad clown.
I know what I look like - a weird sad clown puppet. I'm fine with that.
I had never felt so lonely and so sad in my entire life.
When you're CEO you have to have two conditions: first shareholders need to trust you and want you to head your company. The second is that you need to feel the motivation to do the job. So as long as both are reunited you continue to do the job.