I went through a phase when I was 13 where I would only fall in love with people over the age of 19 or 20. I never had a real relationship with any of these people but it was definitely the guy I wanted to hang out with and wanted to go on trips with. I would be like 'But Daddy he's a musician!'.
I know it when I don't know it. Sometimes I know it when I don't think I know it. I need to trust myself in these moments these rare moments of self-doubt.