If you have parents with a healthy relationship you don't learn that you don't have to be married. I thought being a healthy adult meant you had to have a spouse. I didn't know any different.
First accept sadness. Realize that without losing winning isn't so great.
I feel an intense intimacy with those who have this loathing interest in me....
A celibate like the fly in the heart of an apple dwells in a perpetual sweetness but sits alone and is confined and dies in singularity.