I can look back at different times in my life when I felt I could not find my way out of whatever it was. I'm not necessarily talking about marriage but I wanted to pack it in. I wanted to disappear. A lot of that has to do with being in the public eye.
Power is not a means it is an end. One does not establish a dictatorship in order to safeguard a revolution one makes the revolution in order to establish the dictatorship.