I really believe that all of us have a lot of darkness in our souls. Anger rage fear sadness. I don't think that's only reserved for people who have horrible upbringings. I think it really exists and is part of the human condition. I think in the course of your life you figure out ways to deal with that.
I'm a better coach now than when I joined Celtic. The longer you stay in any job the better you become. If you lose your drive your enthusiasm your imagination that experience is no good.