I don't think it's any coincidence that I lost my religious faith and 'manned up' in the same year. I was described somewhere as a lapsed Catholic which is funny because I'm not going back! I want to achieve things rather than live life in an animalistic way.
In all secrets there is a kind of guilt however beautiful or joyful they may be or for what good end they may be set to serve. Secrecy means evasion and evasion means a problem to the moral mind.