Woman is fine for her own satisfaction alone. No man will admire her the more no woman will like her the better for it. Neatness and fashion are enough for the former and a something of shabbiness or impropriety will be most endearing to the latter.
Here's a thing about the death of your mother or anyone else you love: You can't anticipate how you'll feel afterward. People will tell you a few may be close to right none exactly right.
