I got through my teen years by being a bit of a clown.
I sort of was good at writing essays. I was never very good at mathematics...
The best part of learning any profession when you're really going through...
Intellectual despair results in neither weakness nor dreams but in violence. It is only a matter of knowing how to give vent to one's rage whether one only wants to wander like madmen around prisons or whether one wants to overturn them.